We Are Adults

I'm trying to get rid of my thoughts of my ex-girlfriend. She promised me so many things but now they just don't matter. Even though I gave up so much just to be with her. No more swingers, no more fooling around at clubs. I devoted my life to her and she gave me back crap. Even though I still think about her at times, I can't hate her. She has opened my mind about everything is this world. She saw right through my soul, and she threw all that away. Who would have thought in one second my whole world would turn upside down ?I decided to forget reminiscing on her and I, and just go down town to the local pub and drown away my sorrows in some drinks. Maybe even hook up with a few swingers. Anything to keep my mind of her. As I walked into the pub I noticed that she was sitting right in front of the bartender. Her cute face brighten the whole pub. I sat very far from her and asked a buddy of mine to order drinks for me. He knew what I was going through so he gave me a couple of free beers. I took a few chugs and was instantly wasted. I couldn't hold my liquor well. A few of my friends were cheering me to have some more drinks. She noticed they were calling my name. She turned around and I ran out the door. I just want her out of my life but now she comes prancing back in.She came outside to help me since she knew I couldn't hold my liquor well. She helped me out while I barfed in the back alley. She giggled a bit. I glared at her like she was the most disgusting thing in the world but then I broke into a smile since she looked so cute, that it made my insides tickle. We saw a few swingers passing by and we started laughing out loud. I don't even know why we were laughing. Maybe it was the drinks or the way all swingers dressed the same. Then, all of a sudden, I started remembering all the good times I had with her. How she was the first to cheer me up when I was sad and how we use to make passionate love at hotels and such. Tears started streaming down my face. Why had I buried all these wonderful memories in my heart for so long ? It was just horrible of me to try and forget the best moments in my life.After that, we walked through the park talking about our past. We ended up getting back together but we broke apart soon after. Maybe it just wasn't meant to be. I accepted it, and moved on.