We Are Adults

I probably have the worst luck with men than any one else you have ever known. I have been engaged 4 times and yet I have never gotten actually married. I have gotten one proposal in Paris and the other in Hawaii which are probably some of the most romantic places in the world. Yet they didn't help me and those relationships both ended pretty badly. Two of my other proposals came from men that I met on online dating sites. Both guys were nice and I was sure that I was meant to be with them, yet again the relationships ended in a bad way. Now I wonder if I will ever meet the man that will actually stick it out all the way with me.

Judging by mu previous bad luck you might think that I would not be looking for love on online dating sites, but you would be wrong. Ijust can't bring myself to embrace lookingfor dates in crowded bards and nightclubs and I am already used to the online dating community so I am still actively pursuing a love match this way. There are days I feel discouraged and want to quit but then I remember that I don't want to spend the rest of my life alone and I keep going. Sooner or later I am bound to find that special man that will want to spend the rest of his life with me.

So here I am tonight, back online and surfing the 4 online dating sites that I am a member of. I have upgraded at all of them so I have all the privileges. I can email and communicate all I want, if only I could find the right guy to do it with. I can already see him, he is tall handsome and every time he sees me his eyes are going to light up. He will take his hand and caress my cheek as he tells me that he loves me and wants to be with me forever. I can feel his breath upon my face as he whispers loving words and promises he will keep.

I'd better snap out of it and continue my search id I ever want all that to happen for real. I will spend the rest of the night on this computer looking at profiles and running searches for men in my area. I am not going to give up and won't stop looking until the day I am happily married.